I feared for so long

that I might somehow become ordinary

that in so many ways

I became ordinary

it is my wonder of life

that sets me apart

and lack of fear

that defined me

uniquely

my own star shape in a universe of spectacular lights

and its only recently

That I let myself believe

the same things everyone else accepts as truth

and how I’ve found

the colour drain from my life

in drab, dull colours

bleeding away

never to return

how do I get back

to the sparkle in my eyes

the delight in my swinging steps?

how do I find home again?