It so familiar
This rabbit hole of nostalgia
Consuming.
The person you have been
Or should we say
The people…
Because you have been so many people.
And you have had so many friends over the years
Come and go
Stay
Disappear
and you’ve left people behind.
You are constantly attempting to measure your ordinariness
You fear it
Creep around corners as if awaiting it’s approach
The inevitability of it
You fear that somehow it could sneak up on you
You
One of the most extraordinary people you have ever met
You test fate
Gobble up the most ordinary job you could find
And force yourself to go there
Almost every day
Waiting to see
If this will be the monster that finally defeats you
But in your heart you know it won’t
Because your heart sings of so many things
And it’s most heartbreaking song
So far
Is the one you are telling yourself now
that somehow you have sealed your fate
somehow you have made a bed
and must lay down in it
swallow the bitterness that you might have been
something more.
it is heartbreaking
because…
you know
Better than anyone
How temporary it is