I feared for so long that I might somehow become ordinary that in so many ways I became ordinary it is my wonder of life that sets me apart and lack of fear that defined me uniquely my own star shape in a universe of spectacular lights and its only recently That I let myself believe the same things everyone else accepts as truth and how I’ve found the colour

Suffocated by my own breath I lean into his shoulder ‘I’m so tired,’ I say. He tells me it’s normal That it’s been like this a long time that the ghosts of our past are designed to drag us into murky pools of pain that we were born to suffer through it ‘But I don’t want to suffer anymore,’ I whimper. ‘Then just let go.’ he smiles. And that is